You wanna know what I think? I think that those who claim that Paranormal Activity isn't scary at all are just pretending to be tough, showing-off that some creepy indie film didn't scare them in the slightest bit. It is scary! But if you're tougher, as in for real, the effect is just overnight. You still think about it a bit in the morning though. And make these left-and-right head shaking movements accompanied by a little tongue clicking. (Just like saying "Oh my G, that was one helluva movie and it scared the demons out of me.")

I know, I'm talking about myself.

Pero srsly, it is creepy. And it sinks in. This is the first movie that actually had this effect on me. I normally laugh at movies with supernatural themes. But this one, nah.

So, I belong to the bandwagon now.

A henna, that is.

Habang nakapila ako sa pila ng tricycle pauwi, naisip ko na lang bigla na gumawa ng inventory ng mga naging lalaki sa buhay ko mula nung puppy love stage hanggang sa kasalukuyan. Alam kong hindi 'to masaya basahin dahil puro kalandian lang 'to.

Note: Hindi pala included ang crushes dahil mahirap tandaan yung mga forgettable.

1. Edmar T.
Status: Ewan
Technically, eto yung first boyfriend ko. Kaso, bata pa ko nito, grade 6. Eto yung mga panahon na hindi ko alam kung bakit ko nagugustuhan ang isang lalaki. Hindi ko talaga kinoconsider na ex-boylalu ang palakang ito kasi wala naman talagang thing.

2. Aldrich P.
Status: Boyfriend
Pero under pa rin ng puppy love. Eengot-engot pa ako ng mga panahong ito, eh. Eto yung stage kung kelan ako natutong maging emo-kunware. Grade 6 din ako nito. Nag-break din kami pagkatapos ng ilang weeks at naalala ko umiyak pa ako nun in public. Grabe.

3. Giorgio M.
Status: Ewan
Di ko talaga alam. Malandi pa sakin 'tong unggoy na 'to eh. Naalala ko nung ipagpalit niya ako kay Jeniffer.

4. Mark U.
Status: Boyfriend
Eto yung nakakatawa kong ex-boylalu na sobrang posero grabe grabe grabe. Posero talaga! Favorite niya ang Good Charlotte at Slip Knot noon. Mali-mali pa lyrics niya kapag kinakanta niya yung mga songs. Nagde-date kami sa RFC, yung sosyaling mall dito sa Las Piñas na minsan nang ni-raid dahil mejo DVD-haven siya. Makapal mag-pulbo etong si Mark. Sobrang pangit naman. Di ko nga ulit maintindihan kung bakit ko to naging boylalu. 1st year high school na ako nito. Nakipag-break ako sa kanya sa computer shop, binagsak ko lang yung break-up letter ko sa computer desk niya at may walk out drama pa. Nakakatuwang alalahanin.

5. Arjan B.
Status: First real boyfriend
Si Arjan talaga ang first real boylalu ko. Malapit na din kami mag-two years nung naghiwalay kami. 10 pa ang anniversary date namin. Sobrang illegal talaga ang kalandian ko noon kaya ako ang nagpupunta sa bahay niya sa Valley 2, Parañaque. Sta. Rosa pa ang street ng bahay nila. 5 years ang tanda niya sa akin. Yung kapatid niyang ka-edaran ko, sobrang gwapo. Anyway, masaya naman kami noon. Na-meet ko family niya, yung mga kapatid niyang mga bata, pati mga katulong na rin. Sa kanya ko natutunan yung Piattos na inuulam sa kanin na hanggang ngayon ginagawa ko pa rin. Tabachoy kasi 'tong si Arjan. Lakas kumain tsaka may mga deadly vices. 2nd year high school ako nito. Saksakan talaga ako ng kalandian.

6. HSH
Status: Ka-flirt
Eto yung lalakeng di naman nagseseryoso kapag hindi hot yung babae. Pero willing naman makipag-make-out and everything. Ang rude sa text pero parang bata makipag-usap in person. Sobrang galing niya mag-O2jam, bilis ng daliri. Tangkad pa at singkit, mga tipo kong lalaki. Pero ayun, as usual.

7. Marco G.
Status: 2nd real boylalu
Eto yung so far pinaka-real. At pinaka-masakit.

8. Joshua A.
Status: Ka-flirt
Eto yung latest kong boylalu na ayaw naman akong sagutin kaya sinukuan ko na. Ang hot ng katawan, ka-R.O. ko to noon eh. Crush ko na siya nung may R.O. pa kami hanggang sa nakakasabay ko sa FX at kung saan-saan pa. Bata pa to si Josh, kelangang ma-enlighten ng sobra-sobra.

Konti yang 8. May mga naging ultimate crushes pa kasi ako tulad ni Paulo N. May mga lalaking di ko na talaga sinama dahil nga sabi ko, walang thing.

Nakakatawa.

What's with these people hating Miley Cyrus and Kristen Stewart too much that it comes to the point that these people actually curse them, as if they've met personally, as if Miley Cyrus's naked pictures and Kristen Stewart's two big front teeth affect them directly.

Shet nakakatawa na. Stop it na.

Dalawang klase lang ng tao ang kinasusuklaman sila Miley at Kristen. They're either sincere or nakiki-uso lang.

And my alarm rang just as he was about to... and I was snapped back to consciousness. Fuck that. :|

I never thought it would be possible to fall in love with a guy you meet in your dreams. As in dreams, DREAMS, the royal road to consciousness, the one which occurs in the REM stage, or whichever shit. The thing with that, I can't quite figure out what he looked like. Dreams are supposed to be blurry.

The abnormal thing, I'm in love with the guy. I feel so much love enough to distract me from my infatuation with cousin.

I know, I'm neurotic.

Isa itong malaking kaululan. Pagka-shower ko makakalimutan ko na to.

Currently feeling: JADED, overwhelmed

isabelle.mustdie

I analyzed too much today and questions ran through my head which concerns what I want in life.

I realized, I never wanted material things or a nice paying job. All I ever wanted was a small house, a job that will sustain the needs and a tranquil life - nothing more.

When i had money in hand, I kept wanting more.

When i had two jobs, I didn't any time for anything else. I just kept working and working until such a time, I became workaholic - All I wanted to do was to work; I didn't want to waste a single minute of my life because time meant money.

Now, I'm back to schooling, trying to become a dentist, a doctor, but i never really wanted myself to be one. Just because I've started this course already, might as well get done with it or shift to another course yet again (goodness for the 3rd time around - i do not think so). I have no one to blame but myself. Maybe, at the outset, I can throw the blame at my parents for being too pushy, for having too much expectations on their kids, on me specifically. But for the most part, the major decision of pushing thru the course and get into the actual grad program was on me. I stopped working, packed my bags and zoomed myself back to Manila to finish schooling - thinking it was for the better. God, what was I thinking? I had a great... no, a good life back when I was Vegas. I was contented with what I had then. I was worry free. I was a free soul. I made the wrong move, I opted for the wrong decision because of wrong reasons. I realized only today that these reasons were selfish reasons. I am ashamed to admit I am a greedy, selfish, self-centered person. I really am.

I love my tracker.

Someone has fancied a visit in this site and stayed for almost 5 hours. I just hope it isn't my ex.

300+ offsets. Stalker much?